Saturday, December 26 DAY 56 WITHOUT JEROME LEE.
58 days to go...


i dreamt of you last night.
dreamt that you were finally willing to come back to me.
that we were finally back together again.
i was so happy..
and just when i was at my happiest time, spending it together with you,
i woke up.
only to realised that it was all nothing but a dream
hias..
and i got really really upset.
its like my hopes went that high..
but it was all crushed again when my eyes opened back to reality.
DAMN IT! i hate this reality!
why cant it be the other way round.
that being reality and this being my stupid nightmare!
hias.

i still remember,
the last time we broke up,
i dreamt that you left me for another girl.
i saw you walking away, with your back facing me, with another girl in your hand.
i'll never forget that image.
i woke up,
being so thankful,
it was just a dream.
but i was so afraid it'll come true.
then i remembered someone saying that dreams often reflect the opposite of reality.
and i tried to convince myself that.
soon after that,
we got back together.
so i guess, my dream really reflected the opposite of what really will happen.

but if that's true.
it just means,
i'll never have you back by my side again.
you are leaving me behind for good.
hias..
i really cant live without you...
you were everything i've got.
you were my strength for everything..
and now,
i dont even see your shadow anymore.
but i still remember that fragrance of your hair.
it always lingers on..=(