Monday, January 4 65 days without jerome lee
49 days to go..

i really start to think,
you really have a way to toy with a girl's heart.

thinking back of how you feel for me while you were still in another relationship with your ex back in sec2.
then after that, breaking with her,
refusing to accept her back even after she keeps apologising.

its exactly the case for us too isnt it?
when problems started to arise between us,
you already did not bother to try to salvage anything.
and i guess
its probably cause you've also realised that there are better girls out there.
and that i am not worth the while.
when i apologise and hope to get you back to me,
like wise,
you refused.

are you really that great?
are you?
are you worth me getting so upset over?
when right now you already have someone else in your heart.

hias.
i dont understand myself either.
i hate myself for loving you.
i hate myself to have loved you.
i hate myself to have brought all these misery to myself.

was it a mistake to have commited myself to you when i said i'll love you forever?
was it a mistake to take everything so seriously?
hias..
or was it just a mistake for it to begin with when i 1st known you.

i used to be so grateful to sam.
for bringing us together.
but i dont know if its a good thing after all.
i thought you'd bring me my happiness, you'll show me what's a happily ever after.
but no.
you showed me reality.

MILLY NG YAN RONG! GET THIS IN YOUR HEAD!
he's no longer the one you loved.
he's no longer the one that made you feel like you're the world to him.
he's no longer the one that appreciates the little things you do.
HE'S JUST NO LONGER THE ONE!