1/06/2010 09:20:00 PM
we soared up high ;
Monday, January 4
65 days without jerome lee
49 days to go..
i really start to think,
you really have a way to toy with a girl's heart.
thinking back of how you feel for me while you were still in another relationship with your ex back in sec2.
then after that, breaking with her,
refusing to accept her back even after she keeps apologising.
its exactly the case for us too isnt it?
when problems started to arise between us,
you already did not bother to try to salvage anything.
and i guess
its probably cause you've also realised that there are better girls out there.
and that i am not worth the while.
when i apologise and hope to get you back to me,
like wise,
you refused.
are you really that great?
are you?
are you worth me getting so upset over?
when right now you already have someone else in your heart.
hias.
i dont understand myself either.
i hate myself for loving you.
i hate myself to have loved you.
i hate myself to have brought all these misery to myself.
was it a mistake to have commited myself to you when i said i'll love you forever?
was it a mistake to take everything so seriously?
hias..
or was it just a mistake for it to begin with when i 1st known you.
i used to be so grateful to sam.
for bringing us together.
but i dont know if its a good thing after all.
i thought you'd bring me my happiness, you'll show me what's a happily ever after.
but no.
you showed me reality.
MILLY NG YAN RONG! GET THIS IN YOUR HEAD!
he's no longer the one you loved.
he's no longer the one that made you feel like you're the world to him.
he's no longer the one that appreciates the little things you do.
HE'S JUST NO LONGER THE ONE!
1/04/2010 05:32:00 PM
we soared up high ;
Sunday, January 3
64 days without jerome lee
50 days to go...
i guess, there are still more things about what you did that would make me even more disaapointed
and even more upset.
sigh.
why do you have to further deviate frm the perfect impression of what i had of you.
you were everything i asked for.
but why once the relationship between us ended,
you've got to do so many things that hurt me.
i am just so sick of getting disappointed by you again and again.
hias..
for i dont know what reason,
last night,
i suddenly burst out crying for you again.
are you really worth so many girls being so upset over?
why is it you are capable of making me and joye dislike each other despite not knowing each other.
why are you so capable of making so many girls fall for you.
just what capability do you have.
to make me suffer so much..
hias..
i am just waiting for that day,
when i can fully let you go.
when i can no longer be affected by you...
1/03/2010 08:53:00 PM
we soared up high ;
Friday, January 1
DAY 61 WITHOUT JEROME LEE.
53 days to go.
happy new year jer.
i was wishing you'd tell me we can have a new start on this new year.
but i know it was impossible that, that would ever happen.
In this new year,
may you have a more promising new year ahead.
hope you will work harder and score even better in your studies.
dont do what's harmful to your body.
drinking and smoking,
just keep it as minimal as possible.
be a fiilial son.
be a good friend.
be a blissful and loving boyfriend .
i wish you all the very best in this upcoming year :)
i love you.
HAPPY 2010(:
you seem to be living very fine and happily.
you really dont need me...
hias
